The episode starts in Madson’s warehouse-size loft condo, which is coated with gray-metal cabinets. David and Andrew had been bickering, and whilst their courting isn’t precisely defined, a romance long gone bitter is implied. The buzzer rings; downstairs is a person named Jeff, whom Andrew has requested over, a lot to David’s inflammation.
Andrew sends David downstairs to let him in. In the foyer and elevator, we be told so much:
• David tells Jeff that Andrew proposed marriage, calling David “the man of his dreams” and “his last chance at happiness.”
• David says that he declined, noting that homosexual marriage isn’t criminal, however that Andrew thinks Jeff is “the reason I said no.” Jeff is shocked that Andrew is aware of that Jeff and David had been in combination. “He has this feline intuition,” David says.
• Jeff says that Andrew took a gun from Jeff’s condo, and that he has come to get it again.
As we're processing all this, the 2 males input the condo, and what occurs subsequent is a homicide with a claw hammer too vicious and grisly for me to observe.
Terrified and , David turns out to head numb. He asks why Andrew killed Jeff; Andrew replies, “I lost control.”
David calls 911, however Andrew compels him to hold up via announcing that if the police arrive, they'll each pass to jail, disingenuously eliding the truth that it used to be he who set all this in movement. He is going directly to argue that homophobia makes justice inconceivable anyway. “When the police open the door they’ll see two suspects, not two victims,” he says. And when David insists he's no killer, Andrew replies: “They won’t believe you. They hate us, David, they’ve always hated us. You’re a fag.”
Queer other folks have a time period for such self-serving cynicism: Chutzpah.
As he’s compelled to escape with Andrew, David comes to look the adventure as an emblem for a lifestyles of evasion: “I’m playing over everything the police are going to find out about me, and I realize I’ve been doing this my whole life: playing over and over the moment that people found out about me.” On the street later, he provides: “Was I really afraid, when I got in this car with you, that you were going to kill me? Or was I afraid of the disgrace, the shame of it all. Is that what I’m running from?”
In David’s place of origin, Barron, Wis., his surprised oldsters be told from the Minneapolis detectives stranger named Jeffrey Trail used to be murdered in David’s house, with 27 blows from David’s metal claw hammer. The detectives inform them about some other stranger, named Andrew Cunanan, whose pals in San Francisco have described as dependable, clever, beneficiant. David’s father insists his son is blameless.
“I can see with certainty, there’s a great deal you don’t know about your son,” the detective says. But as we quickly be told in a heart-wrenching scene, he more than likely is aware of greater than the detective assumes.
In one of a number of flashbacks, David is proven talking together with his dad within the storage. It’s a workingman’s storage (in an previous flashback, the 2 of them had long gone searching), and David has graduated from the University of Minnesota, Duluth, on the best of his elegance. He tells his father he's homosexual.
“I won’t lie and say that it doesn’t make a difference,” the daddy responds. “You know what I believe. And maybe this isn’t what you wanted to hear. Maybe you wanted to be told I don’t have a problem with it. I can’t say that. But what I can say is I love you more than I love my own life.”
It is a bittersweet second, one that during its total contours many lesbian and homosexual other folks might acknowledge. That anyone with quite tolerant oldsters within the mid-1980s may nevertheless really feel such disgrace and self-loathing says so much, via implication, about those that lacked such emotional improve.
We get some other take a look at how crushing that disgrace and self-loathing could be, when Andrew and David forestall at a roadside bar. As David ponders escaping from the toilet, Andrew is delivered to tears via a singer’s rendition of the Cars’ 1984 tune “Drive,” a unprecedented second of true emotional vulnerability from him, his ache brimming to the skin. David, whether or not as a result of he feels he can’t break out or received’t be believed, forgoes the risk to avoid wasting his personal lifestyles and returns to the desk with Andrew. Perhaps their want for human connection is mutual.
In a diner day after today, David remembers how Andrew dazzled him after they met at a bar in San Francisco, a yr and a part previous. “What’s this man going to see in me, a small-town boy?” he recollects pondering. They ended up in a $1,000-a-night room on the Mandarin Oriental. David continues:
I take into account pondering: How onerous do I've to paintings to are living like him, like Andrew? ’Cause I’ll do it. Except it used to be all a lie. You’ve by no means labored for the rest. It used to be an act. Is that why you killed Jeff? You beloved him. It used to be so evident. But he figured you out in spite of everything, didn’t he? It took him a couple of years however he in any case noticed the actual you, and also you killed him for it.
Andrew tries to modify the topic, promising David that they’ll lead a glamorous lifestyles in Mexico. He can’t forestall mendacity.
Back within the automotive, David arrives at an extra, belated discovery — that Jeff used to be arrange, that Andrew deliberate all alongside to kill him in David’s presence. “Why are you always talking about the past?” an enraged Andrew asks. “We had a plan. We had a future.”
They pull over. David’s destiny is sealed.
Episode three argued that denial can be a software of survival. Episode four issues out that popularity — of oneself, of the real personality of others — can precise a deadly worth.